Thursday, December 9, 2010

Silence !!!



First thing which came to my mind when i thought of the word silence was of the famous dialogue "Silence !!! or i will kill you " lolz ok stale jokes apart ,whats the first thing you get to your mind when you think of the word golden word "Silence " ........ when was the last time you were surrounded by deadly silence or heavenly silence .Now when I say deadly silence or heavenly silence you might say "what the heck how does it matter silence is silence " :)

Well IMHO silence is deadly or heavenly .Having experienced both and obviously as it sounds one would long for that heavenly silence . Lemme explain these two terms in my words .

There have been many a times in my life when I had faced disastrous situations ( i know disastrous must be a big word to use but trust me there are times when you feel completely devastated by the outcome of some events which leaves you wordless .... unless you are miss or mr perfect with nothing bad or wrong ever happening in ur life ) and all I cud do was to simply sit stare blankly at the ceiling sometimes or at the empty skies with an empty feeling stirring up in the stomach as to why did it ever happen and why the hell did it happen just to me and why the hell has this to happen to me alone and worst part being it happens in no time and in the end you end up surrounded by that "deadly silence " time at that point my friends seems to tick so damn slowly that you feel like why the hell is the clock not moving . That kind of silence is something which is truly deafening ,you feel like something inside you is screaming out hard saying "stopppppp " . Unless you are someone who are attached to someone whose company lifts your mood easily you feel your self totally lost and isolated from the rest of world .

Examples of such situations could be when you had worked really really hard for your dream profile in a very big MNC and you fail to prove yourself in one final round of interview ...a profile an MNC where you had all your hopes highly pinned upon and at that moment you feel completely shattered after realizing that you lost a good opportunity just when you were in dire need of it . Or you worked really hard for the entrance exam for a college which you always dreamed of getting in to and you failed by just a mark or so ... Worst of all is when you lose you someone close or a family member ..those days those moments are hard to overcome ,inspite of so many consoling your and comforting you for the fact that your mind tells you that they wont come back ever again and they cant be seen ever again your heart is just not ready to accept the same fact !!!!! That kind of silence("Eerie silence added with a pinch of fear ..fear of losing fear of something untoward happening ") is what i call it as deadly silence ..a silence where nobody can comfort you ,nobody can cajole you ..and its of course a matter of time you are bound to overcome that state of mind .... ya ya ya i know thats what every one try to console you saying " time will move on so do u have to move on " ,"if not this something else " " there is always something better in store for you " and all ......... typical thought " You dont know what i am going through ,you dont understand what i am going through ,u never faced it so you dont know " isnt it ???? ;)

Looks like i have spoken too much of the deadly silence ..... Let talk about the blissfull part or the heavenly silence .Let me share the best moments of silence which i call it as heavenly (atleast for me it was ) . I had been to the wedding of one of my collegues to vizag and talking about vizag reminds me of the amazing moments of silence i got to njoy standing at the shore ..walking bare feet with waves washing them ..early in the morning with the beautiful golden sun rays hitting waves of all kinds as if an Angel in the sky just sprinkled Golden Dust from her wishy wand :) and the eyes having a feast of the ocean trying to capture in its eyes the entire beautiful scenery ... as far as the longing eyes can see .....All I did was to let my soul to dive in to the silence surrounded by me which had just the noise of the waves ,smell of the morning breeze ,warmth of the morning sun light ,coldness of the water touching my feet and the wet sands ....




And at that moment I let my mind njoy the silence my soul was surrounded with ..with no regretful thoughts of mistakes of past ,no thoughts of what my future beholds and no thoughts of what i should be doing ... it was just ME ME and Me ...... i honestly feel i can spend my restful days of life by living on an island( with all aminities of course ) on the shore with two long palm trees and a swing in between them where i can sleep peacefully and enjoy the beach reading a book and sipping a cool drink :)

Well I seem to hold a special relation to beach spots and for that matter any scenic water spots i.e waterfalls coz i jussssst love the sound of gushing water or waves for that matter and totally njoy playing in the water for how ever long and then dry my self with a nice camp fire on the beach and have a decent hot meal and then lie down watching the dark starry skies :)

I know i must have mentioned heavenly silence related with visting a place but wait i havent yet talked about the silence which surrounds you when you succeed :) I am sure there must have been many a times when you know you have achieved what you always wanted to and specially when it comes to successfully completing something which you have been working on since long .. the satisfaction of acheivment and the pleasure of the fact that you got what you wanted the pleasure of getting something you always wanted ... for the matter of fact that at that moment you feel you are on the top of the world and you don't want anything more in life ..... dats when you feel totalllly heavenly and blissful ...there is this inner tranquility inner peace inner happiness inner joy that you njoy and thats when you just wish to be alone and enjoy your acheivement ...of course this is something which you get after you have settled down upon joying a party you have thrown to your friends or family to share the success or acheivement .....

I guess every person who becomes a father or mother would enjoy that silence when their baby is sleeping soundly by their side regardless of the world :)



OMG i just realized i have written soooo much already .... as always thanks for the patience and pain in reading this :)

Feel free to share your moments of silence with me !!!!!!






Monday, May 24, 2010

My Wish list !

Been thinking since quite a long long long ....( may be ever since my childhood ) to come up with my wish list .One might think i must be copying dasvidaniya or telugu movie oye style but NO I always had a biiiiig( or is it supposed to be lengthy) wish list which of course as expected just keeps on increasing . So I thought why not make a note of it so that one fine day i can always come back to see what i wanted to do . Not all of them but at least most of them i should be able to achieve ( how optimistic of me !!! ;) ) ..

So people take a deep breath and read them .. am sure most of you might find something similar to this .................

  • Go to Disney land US !!
  • Skydiving
  • Bungee jumping
  • Deep sea diving
  • River rafting
  • Horse riding
  • Mountain climbing
  • Skiing
  • To spend a peaceful week ad mist pleasant mountains /peaks
  • Camping in Himalayas
  • Playing in Snow
  • visit the 7 wonders of the world
  • Paint one beautiful portrait .
  • "Dress up " in different kinds of bridal attires ( preferable choosable cultures )
  • Go to a coool serene lake with no crowd or any strangers around and try fishing ..basically fish and then throw them back in water :)
  • To play in rain like hell and have piping hot masala stuff with a whole bunch of kiddos ..
  • To drive and get drenched on a bike with zooming speed on a highway ...
  • To learn salsa and perform just once .
  • To give a musical concert
  • To play piano .
  • To walk by the beach on a nice cloudy evening with a preferred long flowery skirt , count the stars and hold a campfire and then a candle lit dinner with my best friend or even all alone :)
  • To visit the Niagara falls .. Dive through any water fall ..
  • To sponsor a girl child's education and marriage
  • To adopt a girl child
  • To have ice cream at 12 in the nite of my fav flavor with bare feet on wet grass taking a mid nite stroll by a park .. listening to my fav music ..
  • para gliding
  • To direct a movie
  • To write a book
  • To shop at all fav places all fav stuff .
  • To take part in bike race like a roadie :P
  • To get a cool photo shoot done ..
  • To work at NASA .
  • To build a hospital and manage it .
  • To build a dream house with choicest of interiors
  • To achieve a really good title something like business woman of the year/decade kinds
  • To visit Switzerland !! check out the alps ...
  • To paint my room and decorate it with all kind of stuff ...
  • To peacefully sleep on moms lap watching a star studded sky
  • To spend a whole day rite from early morning to late nite in the holy shrine of thirumala .
  • Drive a Plane /steer a train :D
  • Ride in a chopper
  • Visit the great grand canyon
  • Learn martial arts
And the list will go on .. :)